i had pt today. it was HELL. i knew that my shoulder had gotten worse - but i didn't really know how much worse until i went to see my physical therapist, nancy, today. i told her about me feeling like it was worse and what i could and couldn't do now without pain. she said that today we were going to do ultrasound, lite massage and TENS. the ultra sound nearly sent me through the roof at the beginning. when he first started and was running the thing on the curve of my neck my whole arm was tingling. then it went away. then the massage...she was going so light and i was still having areas that were giving me fits. then she hooked up the tens machine and turned up the electricity. that is a weird feeling!
i go see the doc on wednesday an have a list from the pt to give to him. i think my breaking down in tears gave her a clue to the stress that this pain was now causing. i am having a really hard time sleeping because i can't get comfortable. it sucks.
i don't want rain tomorrow. you can't have a good pool party with rain.
busy day tomorrow and i have no clue how i'm going to do it all.
i just got back fom havng drinks with friends at armitage. it was pretty good. obviouly a place that you go when you make good money as there isn't a lot of 1/2 pricced anythings that make it worth while. it was fun though. roger is at kon tiki celebrating a work buddy's birthday or something. i hope he plans on mowing the grass tomorrow...and going shopping with me - otherwise...PJ....WHERE ARE YOU!!!??? it sucks not being able to lift things - and at this point i can't even 'fudgeand pay for it later...i have no strength to lift with my left arm!
Ginger is doing well...she can be so sweet. it will be interesting to see how she does with lots of strangers tomorrow. it will seem strange to have a gathering without my big red boy.
i'm here.
it takes a lot to sit and do anything at the computer. quite honestly i don't know how i am working - my pain level on most days hovers near a 9 (on a scale from 1-10). i'm sure sme people think i'm exhagerating - i'm not. most days i am on the verge of puking due to the pain. i just want an answer.
i have a nerve test a week from today. needles and electrical current - fun...fun...
let me draw you a picture:
sit or lay on your arm until it falls asleep - not just a little...but to the point where the tingles are really bad.
now, go slam your funny bone in to something really hard - you know that feeling
now, pretend there is something under your shoulder blade the size of a tangerine- a tangerine that suddenly convulses at random times of the day making the above two feelings increase in intenstity along with the muscle pain. oh, and with the convulsions you often wonder if your arm is going to suddenly shoot up in the air with one of the spasms!!
yep - that's the picture i can draw for you.
it's constant and never really goes away unless i am so drugged up i'm knocked out. i have even had to learn to sleep a new way because i can't lay on my left side or put any real pressure on that shoulder blade. guess what? i'm a left side sleeper and when that doesn't work i sleep on my back!! not so much anymore!!
i want to feel better.
on a bright note - weight loss is occurring...even pj noticed - and that says a lot since i'm just mom and not a lot about mom gets noticed!!
friday is full - 1/2 day of work, office lunch at chic-fil-a, physical therapy, drinks with work peeps at la encantada. then saturday party.
blessings
st@cy
so, i was ging to head out to the pool for a bit - but the clouds are rolling in a little too fast and i think it might be a waste of time. tomorrow.
this morning i loaded the dishwasher, emptied the master bath linen closet and put it all back in order, went through my closet and packed clothes to give away, got all of the beach towels washed, folded and put away. so far this afteroon i have taken a nap!! i'm still in jammies. i'm going to go put shorts on and then work on the scrap room a bit.
my shoulder is killing me now...wonder why?!
so - here is the baby who turned 4 months old yesterday
roger's dad passed away on wednesday night. roger flew out to michigan on friday afternoon. he missed the viewing but made it for the funeral yesterday. he had a veteran's salute which included a 21 gun salute and presentation of the flag. per tradition, the oldest son will be bringing the flag home with him and the shell of the guns will be sent to us. roger will come home on wendesday afternoon.
i had my first physical therapy appointment on wednesday. lots of work ahead. no speific diagnosis yet but there is a mass of knotted muscles and nerves under my shoulder. once i can get on the regular schedule (they are packed right now) i will be going 2x a week for 6 weeks. i still hurt a lot - the end of the day is very hard...which makes any house keeping minima if at all. it sucks!
with roger gone there is a lot of chores for 1 person to do. i have been working most of today just to get the weekend stuff done that normally we both are doing.
i tried to sleep with ginger on the bed last night. she's almost ready...but not quite. she's a little wiggle worm and she is afraid to go outside alone in the dark - i think it's the walk from the bedroom to the back door that gets to her. normally we are walking that with her, but last night i was hoping she would do it on her own. she didn't and she had an accident - the first one in 2 weeks. i noticed yesterday that we have had her for 3 weeks now.
on tuesday it will be 2 months since we lost the pook man. it still seems surreal. the freaky thing is all of the similarities that ginger has to him. i wonder if that's god's way of keeping a part of the baby boy wih us.
we have to get the office painted and set p and then set up the back bedroom as an actual guest room before october. i talked to roger today and his mom will probably be joining us for a visit this fall/winter - maybe even for christmas. i guess i should get my act together on how i want to paint each room (the office is easier - i want it to be a lodge look).
well, need to go fix dinner and start preparing for the week ahead.
blessings...
